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Friday, August 28, 2009 2 comments

Finally... ;o)

Wow....
the weather is very hot,,isn't it??
hehe...

hmm...
although today is very hot and I a little tired,, because I do something useless and make me disappoint,,but...
today is the best day :D

why??
let me tell the story... ;o)

So,,
after school, I went to my beloved Junior High school,, :D
I want to asked about my NISN..
when I arrived at my Junior high,, I met my sister's friends,, we talked a little...
mean while, passed the school's employe, and I come to him
then when I asked about it to my school employe,, he said,, I already had it, that's my fault because I seldom read anything completely. so.. I got nothing,,huft...

yeap..
I know that's my fault, so I was very disappoint and upset...
but I cheer my self up,, and I continue talked with my sister's friends. We talked about many thing, about my new high school, their first time become a junior high school pupil, their new uniform...
and suddenly,, I saw my Indonesian teacher when I was in 8 and 9 grade....
I was very happy,, I run to her and hug her....

oh my...
I was so thanks full to her,, because she gave me so many tasks when I was in junior high school, and it's very useful now,,
and I really proud of her,, she tough me very well,, I got so many knowledge from her...
She is the best teacher whom I ever meet...
She made me realized that, study Indonesian is a little complicated but fun!!
and I could find my real ideal, my dream and now,, I'm so interest of languages...I find my new dream,,I wanna be a writer, story teller, I wanna write many story...

one day,, I'll write a story about her...

I'm so lucky, well knowing you..
Ms.Wiwiek... ;o)
Thursday, August 27, 2009 1 comments

something different...

This week, I feel there's something unusual happen...

I don't know exactly,,
but,, my feeling says it...

"there's something unusual, something different, it make me confuse,I curious of it, but I can't find it.. because of my stupidity...

why?! why?! why?! and why?!!!!!
why I can't do it??
why I conceal it??
why I'm so stupid?????!!!!!
why I make it so complicated??
ckckck....
really...
My life is so complicated,,looks like a rubic cubic..
it's full color, it always move, turning, but day by day, when it move and turn,, it become so complicated...
but I try to be calm,,and I try to solve it...
Friday, August 21, 2009 0 comments

BIG LOL....

I heard a story from my friend...

it was a stupid, fool story about me!!
I think... I must be very angry....
but I didn't...
indeed,, I felt very happy...
hahahahaha.....

I wanna laugh when I heard that story,, but it was impossible...
he would think that I'm crazy,,
hehe...
but...
in fact,, I already crazy.... 8-D
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I'm so pleased knowing you well...

well,,,

she is well...
it's no matter for her...

hehe....

really twin..
I promise,, I won't hide anything from you...
what ever is it,, we will be an open person...

"twin never say die.."
"friendship never say die.... ;o)"
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I really sorry about that..

I just did a mistake...

I want to make her realize,, but I used a wrong way.. :'(
I hope I didn't hurt her...
I didn't mean to do that...
she is my best friend..
I hope,, she is well...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 1 comments

perumpamaan benih

cinta??
hmm....

jujur aja,aku masih belum bisa nemuin arti cinta yang sebenarnya....aku masih dalam tahap pencarian..
pengalamanku dengan cinta,,hmmm....masih sangat sedikit dan belum memberiku gambaran yang benar-benar nyata, aku rasa,,lebih tepat lagi bila aku menyebutnya sebagai,,pengalamanku saat "falling in love"(aku ga tau kenapa,, aku lebih suka menyebutnya dalam bahasa inggris dari pada Indonesia,,hehehe...)
dan aku telah menemukan sebuah perumpamaan yang,,yah..lumayan tepat untuk menunjukan gambaran yang telahku dapat tentang "falling in love" dari pengalaman hidupku... ;o)

Suatu hari di green house. Green house tersebut di penuhi oleh tanaman dalam pot yang indah. Di green house tersebut,terdapat sebuah pot yang masih baru dan hanya terisi tanah yang subur. Pemilik green house tersebut menanam sebuah benih ke dalam pot tersebut. Benih tersebut di pelihara dengan baik, di siram air secukupnya, di beri pupuk, di bersihkan dari ulat, pengerat, tanaman liar lainnya. Setelah beberapa minggu mendapat perlakuan, benih tersebut tumbuh perlahan. Mulai dari tunas dan akar. Tunas tersebut di rawat dengan baik, sebaik perlakuan awal. Hari demi hari, tunas tersebut dapat tumbuh menjadi tanaman kecil yang telah memiliki batang dan daun, akarnya pun sudah mulai tumbuh memanjang, pada masa-masa ini, tanaman itu rawan sekali untuk mati. Tetapi, berkat perhatian pemilik green house, tanaman tersebut dapat melewati fase rawan tersebut. Setiap hari, tanaman kecil tersebut di rawat dengan baik, tanaman tersebut di letakan di tempat berintensitas cahaya matahari yang baik, di beri air secukupnya, di beri pupuk beberapa kali seminggu, di letakan disuhu yang optimal dan rajin dibersihkan. Beberapa bulan kemudian setelah di beri perlakuan sedemikian rupa, tanaman kecil tersebut tumbuh menjadi tanaman dewasa, memiliki bunga dan bentuk yang indah.

Pada suatu kesempatan, pemilik green house pergi ke luar daerah untuk waktu yang cukup lama. Tidak ada yang merawat tanaman baru tersebut. 1 bulan berlalu,, tanaman tersebut mengugurkan daun-daunnya. Selang beberapa waktu kemudian, kondisi tanaman tersebut semakin memburuk, layu, kering, gersang, bunganya yang indah mulai layu, banyak tanaman liar tumbuh di sekeliling tanaman tersebut,tanahnya sudah tidak subur. Karena tidak dapat bertahan, tanaman tesebut mati.

Pada cerita di atas, pot berisi tanah yang subur adalah cerminan dari hati kita, hati seseorang yang spesial bagi kita, pada masa-masa kita mengenal lawan jenis kita, masa-masa saat kita masih saling mengenal. Benih yang tertanam di dalam pot tersebut saat kita mulai dapat menyukai, menyayangi seseorang, di saat kita mulai kagum pada orang tersebut, saat kita memendam perasaan pada orang tersebut.
Benih tersebut akan tumbuh, jika diberi reaksi(menyirami, memupukin, sinar matahari, dll), perasaan kita akan mulai tumbuh semakin kuat ketika adanya reaksi dari seseorang yang kita suka/kagumi/sayang tersebut, saat ia mulai perhatian, mulai saling terbuka, intinya saat adanya relasi antara kamu dan seseorang yang spesial tersebut.
Pada fase rawan(tanaman kecil),, jika kita ingin rasa suka/sayang/kagum tersebut bisa menjadi rasa yang lebih(hmm..mungkin cinta...aku ga tau pasti,,tapi rasa itu sulit di jelasin dan aku masih belum tau,,seperti apa cinta itu sebenarnya,, maklum...masih remaja,,hehe..perjalanan masih panjang),, kita dan seseorang yang spesial tersebut harus menjalin relasi yang lebih dekat, aku rasa, cukup keterbukaan, perhatian kecil, percakapan.

Saat rasa yang sulit tersebut sudah muncul, biasanya,,kita akan memberi reaksi kembali kepada orang tersebut(bunga yang indah), suatu hal yang berbeda. Tetapi, biasanya di antara kita merasa, reaksi tersebut sudah cukup, dan mentang-mentang sudah bisa dekat dengan orang tersebut,kita jadi cenderung acuh, tidak peduli lagi. Tanpa kita ketahui, bisa saja orang yang spesial bagi kita itu juga menganggap kita spesial, karena kita sudah tidak memberi perhatian, relasi yang dekat, orang tersebut merasa semakin jauh dari kita, begitu juga dengan kita, kita juga semakin jauh dari orang tersebut, dan aku rasa,sebagian dari kita cenderung egois, menganggap itu salahnya, salah orang tersebut, ia meninggalkan kita. Padahal, itu bukan sepenuhnya salah orang spesial tersebut, tetapi salah kita juga.

Semakin hari,semakin menjauh, perasaan yang mulanya kuat, melemah. Masa-masa ini dapat di sebut patah hati, tetapi patah hati kali ini karena salah kita juga. Aku kadang merasa, patah hati karena sebab apapun, tidak ada gunanya juga,, yap... aku akui, aku akan patah hati juga jika ditinggal, tapi alangkah baiknya, saat kita patah hati, kita tidak terlarut dalam kesedihan tersebut, cukup merasakannya sebentar saja. Mungkin beberapa dari kalian akan berfikir,, gampang saja aku berbicara seperti ini, karena aku lagi ga mengalaminya,,haha... Aku cuma mau memberi saran terbaik saja. Cara mengobati pata hati sangat banyak dan bertahap, mulai dari mencoba melupakan kejadian menyakitkan itu, mendekaktak diri dengan Tuhan, melakukan aktivitas yang dapat mengalihkan pikiran kita dari masalah tersebut, bersama dengan teman, sharing adalah jalan yang baik untuk melupakan semua itu perlahan-lahan.

oh ya...
beberapa hal yang aku ketahui..
benih cinta tidak seperti benih pada tanaman pada umumnya...
setelah tumbuh, mati dan tidak dapat tumbuh lagi (itu yang aku tahu dari benih tanaman,, sorry ya kalau salah,,hehe..)
benih cinta, datang dengan sendirinya, yang aku percaya beniht itu datang dari Tuhan..
benih cinta,, tidak akan pernah mati, setelah tumbuh menjadi tanaman, kita tanaman tersebut mati, benih tersebut masih dapat tumbuh, kita tinggal menunggu saat yang tepat, menunggu pemilik green house yang baik, merawat, memberi perhatian pada tanaman baru tersebut....

~sekian~ ;o)
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happy of something unusual..

I'm so happy today,,
I think about something unusual and a little awkward.. ;o)

so this is the story...
this morning,, as another morning, I looking for my special one...
I staid in my class,, I studied, because I have economic test,,
after a moment.. I looked out the window,, I hoped I can saw him...
but I didn't see him...
so I decided to study outdoor with my friends...
till the bell rang,, I haven't seen him..

I felt worry...
I thought he got sick, not well, or something happened to him...
the class began,, we prepared our self for the test,
during the test I still thought about him..
but I tried to full concentration...
then I finished the test well..
the next class started,, english class..
whoa.. I still thought about him, wondering I could saw him at break time...

ring....!!

the bell rang,, it's break time...
I prepared my lunch and met my friend,, before I got out of class..
I saw him!!!
yeay!!! LOL..
I didn't know why..
I felt so happy, I didn't worry again...
I was so happy when I knew that,, he was very well, nothing unexpected happen to him,,lol...

I'm so glad,, knowing him well...

what does it mean??
LOL...
Sunday, August 16, 2009 0 comments

part I : what's that feeling??

hmm....
Love....

what is love??
I'll confess..I don't know what is the mean of love...
but i know how does it feel and look like...
I think,, love is amazing!! It's like a magic, a spell..lol...
There are so many feeling of love
Love can colored your life
It could be looks so beautiful, so beautiful, even.. sometimes you can't describe it...
you'll speechless,, smile by yourself..hihi...it can make you singing...sometimes,, it could turn your face into red (o^.^o),, become addicted of it..

but it could be so horrible too...especially when you broken heart...
it can leave you so many pains, you can cry because of it, you can angry, sad, under pressure,
become a jealousy person(for some people)...

that's all about love that I know...
now,, I'll share my story of love...(I think,, it was a funny,,silly story..LOL)

I'll confess...

first time I fall in love,, when I was in 4 grade of elementary school,,BIG LOL...
do you know?? I doubt of my statement..lol.... I think,, I was not fall in love...I just admire him,, because,, I thought, he was a cute, smart and handsome boy,,,hahaha...(childish think)
but,, that was my very first time to admired someone.
Do you know what I felt? let me tell you..lol....

1.when I saw him from a long distance,,, I just smiled and thought,, "oh my...he is so handsome today...I like him!!! Let me kiss you!!!"..... hahahaha.....

2.when I saw him closer,, my heart beating fast,, my mind said "debby.... don't smile to him... and don't look at him,, think about another thing!! he'll know what you feel,, keep it..."

3.when I told with him,,, I never looked at his eyes,, I act like an easy going person...

4.every time and every chance,, I thought about him(what a wasting time??)...ckckck

hahaha....What a Childish THINK????

I'll tell you the truth...
I love(I mean,, like...hehe) him,, from 4-6 grade of elementary...
but I did nothing,, I just did those things(4 things above). I'm afraid if he know what I feel of him... I know,, till this time,, he never know it...but never mind... because it was in past...
he is my first love in my childhood, when I haven't know what and how is love,, when I haven't know about a boy....(my friends commonly are girls)ckckck....
oh yea...
as another girl...
I shared my feelings to my friend,,
do you know??
I shared that story,, only to one person,, no one knew it,, except, she,I and God(of course...)
really,, I brought a burden by myself, I didn't want to share it to another person...I a kind of close people... my mouth always shield...
many of my friends,, shared their stories to me, I liked to listen them... but I can't believe in them, yeap... that's my stupidity,I was so selfish, it's the reason why.. I like to wrote down all my matters in my diary(since I in 5 grade)... hehe...


It was my elementary story,,

...to be continue...
Saturday, August 15, 2009 1 comments

my very first time make this blog...lol..

Before I share a story,, I wanna say,, I'm very sorry guys,because I know, if my english is bad,lol... especially the gramar,,ckckck...
I like to improve it now, so I often use english to write a story in this blog and talk with my twin and pal(I'll tell you about them soon,,lol..), but I'll use Bahasa Indonesia too,, LOL....

My purpose of making this blog are,,
1st, I like to share my feeling, story in facebook, I think this blog can be my third diary (after my diary and my facebook, hehehe...)

2nd, I have some stories, and I want to share them, I hope, those stories could be an entertainment,inspiration and reflection of your life (and I'm so glad if you give me a comment about my story, maybe your comment could be a reflection and inspiration for me to write another story, face my life, solve my matters and many think else...)

3rd, as what I've said, I like to improve my english...LOL...

the last reason is to fill my free time,,hehehe....

hmmm.. I think that's all my first post...
hope you have a great day... ;o)
~GBU~
 
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