part IVb : first time I feel,, how complicated it is...

one day...after 2 weeks... I was very shocked!!!
when I checked his facebook...
I couldn't find it!!!
I was so worried...
I tried to found it and found it...
but I couldn't find it...
I was very sad...
his profil was the only medicine for me.. it was my heroin when I missed him.. then.. suddenly it lost... I couldn't believe it
preassure, I need it!!
I sent him a message,, but it failed..
I tried to sent it again to his another number..
the same thing happened,, it failed..
I was so sad..
My tears dropped..m
y hearth beat slowly and hard..
it was so painful..
I couldn't smile..
I have no concentration for school...
it made me have many heavy burdens...

my friends supported me to face it...
and I promised my self.. I won't think about him... I won't look back and remember our moments......

after a long process...

I could handle it!!!! yea.. "I'm free!!!
hahaha...

one day..when I opened my facebook..
there was a friend request..
I opened it...
I saw...
that was his name!!
but it was not his picture...
I was so curious..
I approved it and opened it..

my conclusion was right...
it was him!!
I was very pleased!!! whoa!!
finally.. I meet you..!!
then we began a new conversation..
he's fb was hack

I made a little joke about it..
his fb was hack because it had a lot of sins...
LOL...

after some heavy days,,(we fought again because he always send me many messages)
we are in relationship,,
but,, he was not my boyfriend.
we just did special friendship...

since that time,,
he called me dear,, and so did I...

on a week...
we always fought and fought...
he annoyed me, blame me, again.. he was very possessive!!<
I didn't like it...

he asked me about our relation...
we'll we continue it

for the 1st and second times...
I forgave him and he forgave me...

but NO for the third time...
I told him,, we have to end our relation...

suddenly he begged me to forgive him, he was very sorry made me sad, annoyed me, made me angry..
(we talked and fought via sms and chat,,because we never met each other,,ckckck...)

I told him NO sorry anymore..
but he begged me again...

oh my,...

Finally I told him,,
"yes! I forgive you,, but don't blame me if I become cold,because I don't want to be your special one again"
he agreed with it....
ckckck


NEXT DAY...

after last night I forgive him...

Suddenly he came to my class,, with his friends...
he want to meet me,, said my friend...
then...

I met him alone...

OH MY GOSH!!

guys.

I don't want to insult him...

I just wanna say the truth...

he has no an outer handsome...
yikes..
he was dirty, fat and....
whatsoever...!!!!
I don't want to think about his outer,, i just want to know his inner...

but

do you know what he did...

after he saw me...
he didn't say anything to me,,
then...
he went away to me....

What the hell have you doing!!!!!!!!
that's what in my mind!!

after school...
I looked at my phone,,there was a message...
it was from him!
he said
"aku mau kita temenan aja,,aku ngerasa ga pantes buat kamu"
it made me very angry...
why didn't you say it in front of me!!!
that what was in my mind..

haizzz...
Since that time...
I know that he is a coward!!!
chicken boy!!
Liar!!
I call him,,,FPB!!!
and I don't care about him anymore..

after that..
I got a little feeling of someone.
and it was an awkward feeling...
I liked someone(fpb's friend!!!)long
because he had a same problem with me..
broken heart!!
haiz...
but it was not longer...

and I'm so glad...
all of those stories end...
now..
I have a new life and stories...

that's my love story till I'm in junior high school..
I'll tell you,, the newest stories
about my love story in high school(this time,,present..LOL)
how sweet, hurt, complicated and confusing it is....

..............................THE END................................................
but not the last ;o)