part I : what's that feeling??

hmm....
Love....

what is love??
I'll confess..I don't know what is the mean of love...
but i know how does it feel and look like...
I think,, love is amazing!! It's like a magic, a spell..lol...
There are so many feeling of love
Love can colored your life
It could be looks so beautiful, so beautiful, even.. sometimes you can't describe it...
you'll speechless,, smile by yourself..hihi...it can make you singing...sometimes,, it could turn your face into red (o^.^o),, become addicted of it..

but it could be so horrible too...especially when you broken heart...
it can leave you so many pains, you can cry because of it, you can angry, sad, under pressure,
become a jealousy person(for some people)...

that's all about love that I know...
now,, I'll share my story of love...(I think,, it was a funny,,silly story..LOL)

I'll confess...

first time I fall in love,, when I was in 4 grade of elementary school,,BIG LOL...
do you know?? I doubt of my statement..lol.... I think,, I was not fall in love...I just admire him,, because,, I thought, he was a cute, smart and handsome boy,,,hahaha...(childish think)
but,, that was my very first time to admired someone.
Do you know what I felt? let me tell you..lol....

1.when I saw him from a long distance,,, I just smiled and thought,, "oh my...he is so handsome today...I like him!!! Let me kiss you!!!"..... hahahaha.....

2.when I saw him closer,, my heart beating fast,, my mind said "debby.... don't smile to him... and don't look at him,, think about another thing!! he'll know what you feel,, keep it..."

3.when I told with him,,, I never looked at his eyes,, I act like an easy going person...

4.every time and every chance,, I thought about him(what a wasting time??)...ckckck

hahaha....What a Childish THINK????

I'll tell you the truth...
I love(I mean,, like...hehe) him,, from 4-6 grade of elementary...
but I did nothing,, I just did those things(4 things above). I'm afraid if he know what I feel of him... I know,, till this time,, he never know it...but never mind... because it was in past...
he is my first love in my childhood, when I haven't know what and how is love,, when I haven't know about a boy....(my friends commonly are girls)ckckck....
oh yea...
as another girl...
I shared my feelings to my friend,,
do you know??
I shared that story,, only to one person,, no one knew it,, except, she,I and God(of course...)
really,, I brought a burden by myself, I didn't want to share it to another person...I a kind of close people... my mouth always shield...
many of my friends,, shared their stories to me, I liked to listen them... but I can't believe in them, yeap... that's my stupidity,I was so selfish, it's the reason why.. I like to wrote down all my matters in my diary(since I in 5 grade)... hehe...


It was my elementary story,,

...to be continue...